Monday, 31 December 2007
Sometimes in life, my principles hold me back from doing the things I want to do. At least, they teach me right from wrong even though I may not benefit from the right things that I do. At least, God is watching from above, knowing that whatever I do is for him. At least, I keep to my principles and not go against it to bring others down. At least, I know what I am doing is right and live my life like a Christian. At least, I surrender my all to God, including the things I really want in life. Tell me more Lord, what should I do next.
I rise with You in the wake of the morning
And I walk with You in the cool of the night
And every single day, I’m devoted to Your ways
Only Yours, only Yours
And I surrender all to You
And I surrender all to You
And I surrender all to You
And I surrender all to You
I rise with You in the wake of the morning
And I walk with You in the cool of the night
And every single day, I’m devoted to Your ways
Only Yours, only Yours
And I surrender all to You
And I surrender all to You
And I surrender all to You
And I surrender all to You
When I’m weak, You are strong
You’re my feet when I can’t move on
You’re the light in the dark
You’re the whisper inside my heart
When I’m weak, You are strong
You’re my feet when I can’t move on
You’re the light in the dark
You’re the whisper inside my heart
I’m all for You …
Thursday, 27 December 2007
Christmas is over, but this Christmas seems to be one of the worst I ever had. Although I received like twenty over presents and gave away over thirty presents, I still cannot get into the Christmas mood and I am feeling sad deep inside. I know the reason and I do not want to say it out because I will be like complaining here.
I would like to thank everyone for all their presents, or should I say chocolates. That makes this my sweetest Christmas, as I received only two non candy presents. I would like to say a big thank you to my Mummy, Sister, Aunt, Uncle, Aunty Hui Lin, Adrielle, Alexandra, Alvin, Amos, Anne, Boon Teck, Byron, Chai Hwa, Chester, Fu Wei, Hsin Fern, Jeremy, Junie, Liang Fu, Lindsay and Natalie.
There are many ups and downs in my life especially this month and so many upcoming events before the year comes to an end. On the 28th of December, it will be my last trip to Jurong Island this year, and yes, I want this Jurong Island trip to end fast, but too bad I have to go back again next year in February. On 29th and 30th of December, I have a bowling competition at Yishun Safra.
On the 31st of December, which is the last day of the year, I will be going to church for an overnight prayer meeting. It is going to be a night of prayer, thanksgiving and worship. Not forgetting food and friends too. Besides that, some of my friends and I will be going to watch the sunrise on New Year’s Day. This is going to be so cool, fun and exciting. Whatever it is, I really thank God for all the good things that he has brought me this year, and also for all the sad moments, as he carried me through them.
I will plan my goals and targets for next year soon and blog it down to serve as a reminder. Next year will be a year full of excitement, and hopefully less unhappy moments. A year full of achievements and fewer failures. I want to make it a year that I will never forget what has God done for me for the past 19 years in my life. I will hit 20 years of age soon, but I am younger than you, and yes, I am and you know it. Whatever next year holds, I will be ready to face all the new challenges and trust that God will guide me through. Praise God for all that he has done for everyone of us in the Year 2007. God bless everyone and do take care.
Tuesday, 25 December 2007
This is the song that I took two hours to transpose, because I am not good enough to compose a song. It is taken from the song "Beautiful Disaster" by Jon McLaughlin. The song is really beautiful, and boys would love to sing this to the girl they like. Whatever it is, this is partly my song so please do not copy or the girl you like will not like you anymore. Just joking about that, but I am serious that you should not steal this song that I transposed.
He loves to play on his guitar
Hates the sounds of mistakes made
He prays one day he’ll find someone to need him
He thinks that there’s no difference
Between white lies and compliments
It’s all the same if nobody wants him
And every girl he sees may not be good enough
The way that they think makes him sigh
And he would change everything, everything to hold her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
And he just needs someone to be his girl
He’s giving girls what they want
Tries to act so nonchalant
Afraid they’ll see that he’s lost his direction
He never stays the same for long
Trying to write a perfect song
Perfect only in his imperfection
He’s not perfect guy
He doesn’t want to feel this way
His only nineteen but tired
He would do anything, anything to please her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
But he just needs someone to be his love
Cause he’s just the way he is
But no ones told him that’s ok
And he would give anything, anything to win her
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
And he would change everything for happy ever after
Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster
But he just needs someone to take him home
And he just needs someone to take him home
Wednesday, 12 December 2007
From today onwards, I shall walk in the rain unless it is too heavy and I cannot take it. It seems that I am torturing myself, but I just do not want to use the umbrella. Maybe I am just feeling down or something like that. I wonder if I am behaving kind of weird recently and I feel that I am just not myself these few days.
I feel miserable, just miserable. It is so hard to explain the feeling, but I feel that I am forcing myself to lose out in something which I do not want to lose. I know it is down to me to get back to my usual self. I just pray that I can. I am caught between barriers and boulders. Although I may have the strength to push them aside, I rather choose to give up. It is so hard to carry on. Whether this is a test or not, I may not know. I know no one can help me now and I am here all alone. Still, I know God hears my prayer.
Yesterday, I wrote a song for someone which I took about two hours. I hope my effort will pay off, but I am not really satisfied as the music was not composed by me, and I used another song as an inspiration. Well, I just hope that the person I wrote it for will appreciate it and even if it is not appreciated, I know I did my best. Writing a song is really not easy and I think writing a musical script is even worst.
Dear God, I just pray that you will give Daryl enough inspiration for the final part of the script and that everyone that is acting will be able to do their part. Make this Christmas a memorable one for everyone even though I feel that I am not in the mood. I pray that you grant everyone in the musical good health and strength. Amen.
Tuesday, 11 December 2007
This is the last week of school for me, but it is not exactly the last week of school because for the next two weeks I will have an attachment at Jurong Island. Yes, I know it is very far away from my home, so I have to wake up at about five in the morning from next week onwards. School is still as hectic as usual, but God is guiding me through and I really thank him for that.
Yesterday, I had school the whole day. Bowling training was not really good because the coach made me change my style of playing. Well, I just hope I can adapt to the new style by next week because the bowling competition at the end of the year is approaching in about three weeks.
I cannot really figure out my mood for the past few weeks and I am having mixed feelings. Sometimes, I feel that my smile is fake and I feel lost, empty, and stressed inside. Christmas is coming. I hope all these sad feelings will go away so that I can celebrate Christmas joyfully just like every other year.
For those of my friends who are feeling like me out there, do trust in God and pray about it. He will surely help you and keep you calm when you feel that there is no one else around to help you. He will keep you and protect you. Be beneath your feet to give you a solid foundation to stand upon. Be above you to be your shelter. Be around you to protect you and give you the warmth you need. Be by your side to hold your hand and guide you through the darkest of all nights.
Sunday, 9 December 2007
Dear God, thank you for keeping me and my friends in good health and guiding me through this hectic week which I cannot get through without you. Although I only sleep about five hours a day, you still gave me the strength I need and you never fail to keep me awake during the most boring lessons of the week. Thank you for guiding me in my bowling as I am constantly improving. Pray that I will always remember you no matter how well or badly I play.
God, I thank you for teaching me how to be selfless and teach well in my windsurfing class yesterday. I pray for the participants in the competition next week will be able to do their best and that you will not only grant them the skills, but also give them good weather and wind so that they can enjoy themselves. Even as Christmas is drawing near, I pray that you will grant everyone in the Christmas Outreach committee good health and that they will commit their time to make it possible and share your word with the non-believers through the musical. Amen.