Crying can make you live longer, but that is not the point. Everytime you are sad, I get affected because I care for you. Everytime you "emo", I "emo" more than you. Everytime you tell me your problems I try to solve them for you, but do you know how much sleep and study time I lost because I put you before all this things. I simply lost my concentration and go into my own "emo" state when I know that you are down.

If I am willing to sacrifice my sleep and study time just to make you feel better I will, but do you think that you are dwelling too much into something that you can avoid? Think about it and how I feel. I am still "emoing" even though I have a very hectic week ahead of me. My mind cannot even focus for a minute to study for my two tests that are coming up tomorrow. I hope the next time I see you or talk to you, you would feel better so that I can get some rest.

I lack sleep again as usual. Anyway, sleep is not really my passion so I do not really care about that as long as I do not get sick. I feel that I am not my usual self these few days. Yesterday, I stood at the lift lobby and waited for the lift for quite some time and to realise that I did not even press the button. Later in the afternoon, I went to school with my bowling ball to only realise that there was no training. Well, that was seriously a wasted trip for me, but it did not really matter after all.

I got back my plant design test and I got a 'B'. That was not the grade I really wanted nor expected, but I had to accept it. It was practically all careless mistakes and poor explanation which I could easily avoided. If I do not get straight 'A's for this semester onwards, I think I will not be able to get into National University of Singapore. Then what future will I have? Anyway, I do not really like studying, but I need at least a degree to get some job that I can survive in. I think it is time to concentrate on my upcoming test and not worry too much.